Stars

     I love this saying!  I really believe Jackson is looking down on us and I know he is happy where he is.  As comforting as that thought is though, I would be happier if he were here with us on earth.  It's frustrating that I have to wait so long to be able to see him again. I don't know how anyone could survive losing a child without knowledge of the gospel and the plan of salvation. My heart aches for those people!  To think that this is the end is something I can't even wrap my mind around.  I feel so lucky to be raised in the gospel with a knowledge of God's Plan for us.
      Lately I have been thinking about my kids.  They miss their little brother so much!  They still talk about him all the time and he is always included in their prayers.  They don't understand why all their friends have little brothers and sisters that they get to keep and we don't.  It's very difficult to explain to a four year old that her baby brother is in Heaven. Elise loves singing 'Families Can Be Together Forever', and is starting to understand that she will see Jackson again.  She knows he is in Heaven with Heavenly Father and Jesus.  Caden understands a lot more than I thought he would too.  He wanted to help 'pick out' a spot to bury Jackson and was involved in lots of other aspects of his funeral and burial.  I am glad he has wanted to be a part of everything.  It has really helped him form a bond with his brother.  This experience has really forced my kids to grow up fast!
     I look at the stars very differently now.  They seem to shine so much brighter!  I love to think of them as openings into Heaven and I often wonder which one Jackson is looking down on us from!