A New Perspective

     It is amazing how grief can change a person.  During the first while after your loss you feel more temperamental, more pessimistic, and more sensitive than usual.  But as you work through your grief, you notice that it is more your perspective than your personality that changes.  I feel older, wiser, and more a part of the cycle of life and death.  My testimony of the plan of salvation has been strengthened and I view death and the spirit world in a whole new light.
     I have learned so much about myself these past three months.  One thing I have learned is that I am much stronger than I thought I was.  I know part of it is do to intense prayer and my reliance on the Lord.  I know he loves me and wants what is best for me.
     Things like money, status, and possessions have lost their value.  They just aren't as important anymore.  They don't matter nearly as much as our testimonies and families.
     I have a heightened appreciate for my two living children.  I cherish every moment of every day with them. I know I am very fortunate to have them in my life.  I have a wonderful, supportive husband who has taken great care of our family.
     I don't take things like good health for granted anymore. I am grateful for my health and well being and I know that I have been very blessed.
     Supportive friends and family mean more to me than ever before.    I have been amazed at all the love and support we have received.  It has meant so much to me to see how much people care about us.  Another thing I have learned is that people mean well, even when I may not come across that way.  We all show love in the best way we know how.
     I am grateful for this learning experience and the clarity it has brought me.  My eyes have truly been opened towards grief and suffering and I have a greater compassion for the plights others are experiencing.  I have a stronger testimony of the Atonement of Jesus Christ.  I know that he Christ knows exactly how I feel and the pain I am going through.  I am so grateful to have a loving Heavenly Father that I can pray to for guidance and understanding.  I am grateful for this new perspective.  There is no way I could get it without the trials I have been through.

I love this quote . . .