Due Date

     Yesterday, October 24th, was my due date.  I had been dreading this day for a long time thinking it would be absolutely awful, but it really wasn't that bad.  Jason took the day off to be with us at home.  A few minutes after we dropped Caden off at school the doorbell rang.  When we answered it, this is what we found . . . .

 Someone had decorated our yard with blue balloons!  Several of them had hearts and/or Jackson's name on them.  It was really sweet!  Elise was really excited about it!  Caden loved it when he got home from school. It made us so happy to know that someone thought of us!

   Jason, Elise, and I spent the morning at my parent's house making little diapers for 'Teeny Tears'.  We didn't finish all of them yet, so I will post pictures later.  It felt nice to be able to perform some service on this special day.  We also had a chance to visit the cemetery with my family and leave these balloons on Jackson's grave.

     I kept busy at night at my Relief Society Fall Social.  At first I didn't think I would be able to attend it, but I decided to go at the last minute.  It just made sense to be there rather than sitting at home and thinking about the fact that we don't have a baby to bring home.  It was actually kind of fun and I am glad I went.
   I am SO glad we kept the day kind of low key.  It was just the way I wanted it.  I really didn't want to make some big production of it.  It was nice being able to spend it with family.  I am so grateful to all our friends and family who remembered us on this difficult day.  We received several thoughtful gifts and kind words.
   I am also SO glad that that day is over.  I don't know why I stressed out about it so much.  It really wasn't too bad!  Now I have to get through the holidays coming up . . . .